These are words

It's been a long time since I sat down and wrote. I mean really wrote what was in my heart. All the thoughts that are inside of me bubbling out freely. I don't know if I will ever be able to do that again. I offer up a song, some lyrics maybe something funny or cute but the things that are real stay quiet. I suppose in some respects I have considered quitting my blog but my inner narcissist loves the attention too much to do that.

That's enough honesty for one night 

You should watch this YouTube channel.

And try chocolate wine. You would think after my amazing Christmas eve hangover I would know better but NAH!

I feel so light and at peace. It's been a long time since I have felt this way.



  This is my winter song to you. The storm is coming soon, it rolls in from the sea
My voice; a beacon in the night. My words will be your light, to carry you to me.
 Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love
They say that things just cannot grow beneath the winter snow, or so I have been told. They say were buried far, just like a distant star I simply cannot hold.
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
This is my winter song. December never felt so wrong, cause you're not where you belong; inside my arms.
  I still believe in summer days. The seasons always change and life will find a way. 
Ill be your harvester of light and send it out tonight so we can start again.
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
 This is my winter song. December never felt so wrong, cause you're not where you belong; inside my arms. 
This is my winter song to you. The storm is coming soon it rolls in from the sea. My love a beacon in the night. My words will be your light to carry you to me.
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive?

Happy 100th

I would have hoped that my 100th post would be special and fun but I am heavy hearted tonight. I did something I haven't done in a long time. Friday morning I sat down on the couch, watched the news and cried. I haven't stopped thinking about it since then. They were just babies. I have a 7 year old. I can't even comprehend it.

I have so much on my mind right now. I need to not blog tonight. LOL

So happy 100th I promise in a few days I will put a real post up.

Daily dose of rock

I can't believe it is almost my birthday. This year has flown by. I'm actually pretty meh about it. I didn't plan anything this year but yesterday I kinda sorta had a thing at my house. Don't take offense if you weren't invited. It just happened. I have almost no voice today from all the screaming. I can turn beer pong into a sporting event. I was on FIRE last night.

Check out Volbeat "still counting"


Well maybe you think your lie is safe
But I read you like a letter, yeah like a letter
Your charms do not even the pain
it feeds me with rage, and you do it again


Also listen to Seether "Country Song"
I'm really embarrassed to admit to liking Seether but I can't help it.





 Okay last one. Halestorm "I miss the misery"

The little things

This is what NOT studying looks like. Tomorrow is the final. Am I self sabotaging? I may have just had an epiphany. It's floating somewhere in this glass of wine. I should be okay. I'm just done thinking for the night. 

Today while we were taking a tour of the East campus hospital I was all like "just take me to the babies!!!" in my head. I don't think that means I want to have another one. I just think I want to squish someones elses baby and then give it back. Working in the birthing center? Oh be still my heart. I know I will end up where I belong...where ever that is.

Daily funny

Tonight G was trying to tell me about a song.
"It's two guys. I think they might be British. I heard the song twice today and it made me think of you." So I showed him how to take whatever lyrics you do know with the word "lyrics" and Google will find the song. Me: so what is the song? G: Ummm I can't tell you. Me: Why not?! G: It's One Direction "the little things" Me: Yeah we probably can't be married anymore.

I spend more time thinking of a title then writing the actual blog

The internet is making me stabby tonight. I'm pretty sure my son is downloading something. 

 As most of you are aware I now work for YRMC. I have my reasons but it absolutely was not because I don't love Good Sam. Everyone I met there has had a profound impact on my life and I will never forget them and am very much in contact with them all. So sappy stuff aside...

Now this is porn! And I have watched my fair share of porn... 

I wish I could blog like her. I feel like my posts run out of steam before I even start writing them. Anyways I like her. She is funny and honest and yeah...you should check it out.

I feel like when I am at my busiest I sound the most boring. I should be sleeping right now. I would take a sleeping pill but I have 8 hours of orientation tomorrow. It's hard enough to stay awake through it let alone stay awake with a Tylenol PM hangover. 

Oh! I got my ears to a 10 gauge! Went right from an 18 up to a 10. I made D do it for me. She's such a good wifey. She was really concerned if it was hurting me. ftr it did hurt but I kinda like a little pain. It wont take long to get to a 4.

One last thing. Why don't you do something nice for someone. Seriously. Wipe that sour look off your face, stop complaining about how hard your life is and do something nice.

Once finals and new job orientation are over I will write more. Promise. Until then you get the condensed version of my life.

As promised...

Dick sucking jokes, profanity and an overactive gag reflex. If you are okay with that then go ahead and watch. Maybe I will start vlogging. ps God I have pretty hair!

 G asked me today what I wanted for my birthday. It's between an iPhone 5 or a coach bag. Or maybe I want the Galaxy s3. I want a lot of things. Probably an iPhone 5.

Went T-day shopping today. I'm making shit like creme fraiche and roasted garlic mashed potatoes. I'm fucking classy like that. Going all out this year. Except for yams because yams are gross. Anyone who tells you yams are good is lying just to be nice.

 Funny from today. We were in line at Safeway and the checkout boy cards me. (buying several bottles of wine and vodka for thanksgiving) I motioned to G like "what about him"?

Checkout boy: No I don't need his ID
Me: But you want mine?
Checkout boy: Yes...
G: (laughing) He respects the beard
Me: Whatever you just whine like a little girl! (he gets whiny when shopping takes too long)
G: That's not what you were screaming about 3 hours ago! zing!
 Ugh FAIL!

I got dark, only to shine

Have you ever done a thing on a whim and thought nothing would come of it but then something does come of it and you feel like you are standing outside your body watching it all go down? That's where I'm at right now. This is for reals happening. Cryptic? You bet your sweet ass!

Tonight is simple just a little new music to get you through the week.

Marina and the diamonds

I almost don't even want to mention her because I want to keep her MY secret. This is my new idol.

Just listen to "Homewrecker"




Or Numb



Can't forget about Lana Del Rey "National Anthem"

Up too late as usual

Well hello there, it's been a while. Has it? IDK it feels like it. I have things to tell you!

Let's start with the mundane. Sriracha. In case you didn't know and have been living under a rock somewhere Sriracha is a hot sauce but not just any hot sauce. Sriracha is a delicious blessing flavored with the incandescent glow of a thousand dying suns. Yeah it's that good. And it is also called cock sauce which makes me LOL forever. I made stir fry tonight and drowned mine in the stuff. Unbelievably lips burning good.

Someone somewhere mentioned a game and I kinda stopped what I was doing. Secret of Mana is on my list (of games I still need to play). I think I'm gonna pick this one up this week. Thanks for the reminder.

Holy shit going back home this weekend! Booked a room at Mountain Haven Inn. Kinda like a B&B minus the breakfast. It's been 11 years. Super excited for Michael and Jason's new brewery. 

G has an interview before we leave on Friday.  If he get's the position (same company different department) it will be huge. It will change everything. Being on the engineering team at Rugar would be amazing for him. He is convinced he wont get it but I am hopeful. He is the smartest man I know and if anyone can do it he can. I kind of did something a little crazy too. It's no secret but I may have applied for a different job. A chance to make more money is just so tempting. Good Sam has been good to me but who knows. Sometimes you just need a change. 

Okay I'm off too bed. I feel bad for people who have small children that wake them up. At least I get 8 hours uninterrupted.

Just a collection of little things

It's funny how time changes things. Even just our own perspective on things. Sometimes I think about how different life would be (usually after a few glasses of wine) with just a few different choices. It always works out the way it's supposed to. I'm grateful for the peace I have made with the past. My mothers birthday was October 2nd. I wonder if she is still alive.

As you can see I never made it to the lake. Still a busy weekend none the less. Went to Flagstaff and Rugar days. Saw a grasshopper the size of my hand. Went shopping for bras and makeup. G bought me a pretty turquoise ring. I'm going to spend tomorrow catching up on homework and leveling my hunter. Comeon 90!

Links because it is late and I am tired.

The Unnecesarian
Site dedicated to birth education and cesarean section rates. Birth is big business! I was 21 when I had my first baby and the Dr actually told me "It would just be easier that way" So glad I followed my instincts but I can't help but feel sorry for the women who don't know any better.

Postsecret
Still my favorite place on the web. We really aren't all that different.

BoingBoing
Makes me miss Andrew. He taught me a lot in a short amount of time.




 


A Softer World: 818

Happy October!

Headed to the lake next weekend! And because I am so happy I thought I would pass along the things I thought would make you smile.

But first.

This made me laugh WAY harder than I should have. GEE - SUZ - CRIIEEEST

This is interesting. Sorta in a creepy way.

Happy October. You know what the one redeeming quality of fall is? Beer...and beer fest. That's it. Because other than that it just means it's about to get cold.

Sure, why not.

Missed yesterday because I worked. So post is up late. ;-)

As much as I have been fighting against it I have fallen into a routine. Not the boring sort just the predictable sort. I'm in a really happy place.

Putting a pie in the fair tomorrow. Dutch apple. What the fuck is wrong with me. smh. Oh I know it was being raised on a farm. You know funny thing. Most things are pretty open for discussion when it comes to my life. I'm the queen of the overshare lol. I don't talk about one thing, at least not here. Those conversations are saved for sitting in the dark talking quietly over a cigarette. Even then it's only a special few.  Anyhow my point is I thought about it today. Tori Amos "Cornflake girl". I saw a video of Maynard and Tori singing together. Let me look that up for you because that's important.


*love*

All time favorite Tori song? A sorta fairytale.

Somehow these post just do not accurately depict how I'm feeling. Okay back to the Moscato and not sleeping because that is what I do best. What's the cheesy line from Titanic. Something about a woman's heart being a deep ocean of secrets. Yeah that.

I'll sleep when I'm dead

Why do I do this too myself?! Good question.

The YouTubes reminded me of one of my favorite shows. So You Think You Can Dance. Dance just wasn't in the stars for me but I still love it. Maybe someday I will get back to it. Until then I watch this.

Yeah destroys me every. time.

Listen to
Sleeping at last "turning page"

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered, to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With the whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes
Like a feather, bringing kingdoms to their knees

Well, happy Monday friend. Oh wait it's tuesday... FML

Bloggity blog

Three words. Mini Babybel cheese. Get in my mouf right naow!!! Delicious little fuckers. Cheese is the reason I'm not a vegan.
I listened to music today. I know, write it down on the calender. Ha! Just kidding! But really look up Fair to midland. You will like them. A little bit like Primus kinda sorta?

Planning a trip back home to Showlow soon. Exciting!

I always have so much more I want to talk about but lose interest. Ugh A.D.D.

G's bday is tomorrow. I asked him what he wanted and he said for me to not make him go anywhere. I'm taking him to Texas Roadhouse. Mean, I'm so mean!

Less controversial then I had originally intended

I should just rename this blog my drunk blogs. I was fully prepared to go to bed but I have much on my mind.

My son approached me today and asked me what my favorite song was. Conversation went as follows.

D: Hey mom what is your favorite song?
Me: IDK I have a lot of favorite songs. (but ever ready to talk about music) But right now I have been listening to Grace Potter and the Nocturnals "Stars"
The next thing he said was the most profound thing a 10 year old has ever uttered.
D: Mom, my favorite song is called "Hide and Seek" but I don't know who it's by.
Me: Imogen Heap?
D: Yeah them.

Of course he has no idea what that song means to me. The flight back home after my fathers funeral. The feeling of being totally alone in this world. The realization that everything you love will someday be lost. Nothing is forever. But I am so proud of him for listening to music for more then just what is popular. And when he was singing along to the line  "oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung before" it's hard to not laugh because he clearly has no idea what that line means. And when he does I have a feeling it will be with another boy. Have I mentioned I think my son is gay? No? Not on here I suppose. Well I do. But this blog isn't about my sons eventual sexual preference but his exquisite taste in music. Imogen Heap? Really? So proud I am bursting.

More to say but I'm sure you are used to this by now. Post more when I am less tired/drunk.

One last thing can I just say I am impressed by his ability to sing? Maybe he will be trading flag football for vocal lessons?

Wine, cat stuff and gossip in no particular order

I'm really excited to see what comes out of Caduceus cellars this season. I keep seeing pictures on Instagram of his new wines. You know what I love more than Tool? Drinking. Drinking wine made by the lead singer of Tool? Mind=blown

I am sad I don't have travel plans over Labor Day weekend. I want to make one last trip to Jerome before it gets cold. I fucking love that place. so. hard. Boating on Bartlett would be fun too.

Pointless entry is pointless. I was going to talk a little about religion but nope. Let's just say someone I used to be really good friends with is now a total douchebag. I don't care that our lives are different you don't have to act like that. What?! Is it because I say the fuck word too much?! Guess what. On this day not one single fuck was given. The end.

I got my cat a collar and Soft Claws today. He pretty much hates me. He doesn't know if he should be chewing his nail caps or trying to wriggle out of his collar. Poor boy.

Pintrest anyone?

I have new music for you! Go look up Silversun Pickups and listen to Lazyeye. Also The Format but I'm pretty sure I have told you about them before.

So I started Pintrest.  Here's mine. I don't have much on there but OMG incoming addiction. So many ideas! In all actuality I started it to get luau ideas but it is snowballing from there.

I suppose I should be cleaning and getting ready for Saturday. I need coffee first.

Oh here read this article. Be sure and watch the video too. If you ever need a reason to stop eating meat well there you go. This isn't an isolated incidence either, they are all like this. I will admit I'm not always perfect when it comes to being a vegetarian. Sometimes it is just easier to eat what everyone else is eating. But this is a good reminder why I choose not too.

Ok back to coffee

This is a title

It feels so late right now. Let's condense this and make it easier.

*Saturday is a Luau at my house. Never had one and we are going to make a shot called "tiki torches" (I came up with that). Anyways end of summer epicness. Good thing the neighbors moved! ;-) You will be hearing more about this I am quite sure.

*Today was the first day back to school. I love the first day. So full of hope and promise. But yeah it was nice. Dear YC fix the parking. Almost late to class because I couldn't find a spot.

*Been thinking a lot about home lately. I want to plan a visit this fall. Sometimes I miss pinetop and the white mountains.

 *What is with all the relationship crazyness. Have a little self respect! Desperation does NOT look good on you! Some people are just SO clueless!

Anyways going to derp around the net until I'm tired. On second thought I'm getting on the game. Mage time! :-D

I cheated

 That's right people. I had a huge bacon cheese burger in my mouth today and I loved every second of it. I regret nothing! 
And you people are so predictable. I bet 10$ I have 50billion hits by tomorrow just because of the title of this blog. Calm down people. Just talking about beef. *winkwink*

The ceiling fan is making a noise that sounds like someone is walking on the roof. Fucking creepy.

The internet is seriously pissing me off right now. YouTube is taking WAY too long to load. I don't do TV any more. My ADD attention span only allows for 3-5 minute videos. True facts.

I have a bunch of random stuff floating around tonight. Thoughts...words. Anyways you should be listening to Teagan and Sara "Call it off". Good stuff.

Sorry if this was one of the more random posts. The most exciting thing I did today was buy new scrubs and hang out at the mall by myself because apparently my friends either don't wake up until noon or don't check facebook. After I am home and in my yoga pants I got no less then 10 text and FB messages asking me where the hell I was. 

Oh yeah one last thing. Saturday is going to be a thing at my house. I want to try a recipe for flaming shots. 

Fill up a shot glass 3/4 of the way with Jager.
The last 1/4 top off with Bacardi 151
Light on fire and drop into a glass of RedBull
Shoot that shit like a pro
Don't set the house on fire
  

I know you've heard this before

I have a new favorite group. Yayaya I know I say this shit every other day but whatever. Just STFU and look up Imagine Dragons. They make me insanely happy. Best songs are Demons and...



On top of the world

If you love somebody
Better tell them why they’re here ’cause
They may just run away from you
You’ll never know what went well
Then again it just depends on
How long of time is left for you
I’ve had the highest mountains
I’ve had the deepest rivers
You can have it all but not til you prove it
Now take it in but don’t look down
‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
Waiting on this for a while now
Paying my dues to the dirt
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay
Been holding it in for a while, ‘ay
Take it with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child
I’m on top of the world.
I’ve tried to cut these corners
Try to take the easy way out
I kept on falling short of something
I coulda gave up then but
Then again I couldn’t have ’cause
I’ve traveled all this way for something
Now take it in but don’t look down
‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
Waiting on this for a while now
Paying my dues to the dirt
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay
Been holding it in for a while, ‘ay
Take it with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child
I’m on top of the world.
‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
Waiting on this for a while now
Paying my dues to the dirt
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay
Been holding it in for a while, ‘ay
Take it with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child
And I know it’s hard when you’re falling down
And it’s a long way up when you hit the ground
Get up now, get up, get up now.

Guess what I did!?

So I bought a car today. Originally I had wanted a VW bug but it was already sold by the time we got there. I didn't like anything else that was in our price range so I did what any girl would do. I cried until the hubs gave in and let me go 6k over budget. And that is the story of how I ended up with a black Kia Sorento. I'm spoiled whatever I know. btw the car is SICK! I already got my Alliance sticker from J!nx and next is Car Lashes. G and I are still debating over those. He says he can't drive a car that has eyelashes and I say good stay outta my car!

School starts soon. One more week for the kids and 3 weeks for me. The youngest is in kindergarten now so what else would I do all day? Might as well go to class! Still kinda sad summer is almost over.

I'm gonna go pet my car now. YOLO!

OMG content! I wrote an actual post!

Oh hey! So is this going to be a real post? I don't know lets find out. Beer is involved so anything can happen.

Dear internet gods please don't let the electricity go out so this can be an actual thing...amen.

Let's begin! First off what have I been up too? (not in any particular order)  Let's see. I spent a weekend in Sedona and I really didn't want to come home. Had sushi and quite possibly the best Mexican food ever. Also met some pretty fantastic people and really wished they lived closer instead of all the way out in Oregon. Playing with the idea of moving to the Oregon/Washington area in the future. Who knows, life is crazy.

Here is a link to the sweet hotel we stayed in.
Kings Ransom Hotel

This is a link to the best Mexican food in the world.
Elote Cafe

I saw Maynard in concert! At Yavapai College! I will never view campus the same. It was surreal. Favorite part was when he said "This is real. Right now this is really happening, it is not a movie so you can stand up." Excuse me MJ but were you talking to me directly? #1 "That was real, that really happened" is MY line and #2 yeah I was the girl who absolutely flipped her shit the moment you walked on stage. I'm pretty sure we were BFF's in a past life. He also said some pretty profound shit about communicating and story telling and connecting with people in a real honest (not cell phone or e-mail) kind of way. I really need to see A Perfect Circle before I die. On the bucket list.



The Nurse Who Loved Me~APC

Say hello to everything you've left behind
It's even more a part of your life now that you can't touch it

4th of July was...okay. Not as epic as years past but it was raining and G had a burn on his legs from the salt river that was making him miserable. Poor Gingers. It's a hard life with no skin pigmentation (or soul).

Speaking of salt river that was pretty fucking fun!

Oh yeah lately (as in the past few months) I have been really into YouTube. Here is a list of my favorites.
CHARLIEISSOCOOLLIKE
Cute/sweet British boy talks about...stuff

PrankVSPrank
Jersey couple prank each other and video it. Hilarius.

My Drunk Kitchen
She gets drunk and cooks crazy food. I <3 her so much! Also she loves cheese as much as I do.

Daily Grace
Grace talks about girl stuff. It's random and relatable .Awkward hands!

Jenna Marbles
Funny and real. Also my girl crush. Not sure if I want to be her or be ON her.

MaxNoSleeves
Jenna's boyfriend. I just watch to see Jenna.

This is far from all of them but it is the main ones. YouTube>TV just sayin.


OMG a real post! This really happened! Now I get to get drunk and play video games! My life, you want it. No really, not everyone is this lucky. <3<3<3 to you all.

*edit*
I made the best vegetarian 7 layer dip today. So good in my mouf! MOAR!!!
Thought I would share.

Vegetarian refried black beans
Homemade guacamole (avocados lime cilantro salt pepper mashed together)
sour cream
diced tomato
diced red onion
sliced olives
Metric fuck ton of cheese
Layer that shit
Put it in your face hole with tortilla chips
*You are welcome*

No, just no.

I have been penning a post in my head for a few days now but honestly I'm tired and my office is hot. Well my office is always hot. G put the fan in the window above our bed and that's just way too inviting. It's all good except for my bedroom faces the road so please don't drive by with a loud truck or I will kill your face.

Sedona next weekend!

Here watch this video of a baby preaching.


Fire truck, I'm GAAAAYYYY LOLWTF!

Not even everything I want to say.

I really feel like words fail these last couple of days. I also apologize for the lack of pictures. Maynard has strict rules about cameras and can't really take pictures going down the salt. That being said make no mistake it was all epic. I will post actual thoughts put into words about how much Puscifer blew my mind when I get a chance to gather my thoughts.


The Salt was also pretty fucken awesome. I took my sister (it was her dirty 30) and like 7 of my friends. Grats to me for fitting them all in the rape van. Also need to make a mental note to keep more sunblock on my husband when we are outside. Poor ginger, it must be hard living life without a soul. I put 85 spf on him once we got there and he hid under an umbrella and still managed to get a terrible burn on his legs. I used spf 30 once at like 7 in the morning and nothing after that and didn't even get pink. 


Watched Insidious with Glenn today (yesterday?). Dumbest movie ever. Not scary and I am afraid of everything. The fucking Mothman Prophecies scared the shit outta me! But this movie??? It was just really stupid. 

Tomorrow is the 4th! Going to the spend the day at the park. Don't worry we are bringing a shade tent and a bucket of sunblock.

Oh yeah more great news. Had my yearly exam today and I am getting an IUD next week! That's right I'm responsible bitches! No more babies for me.   

started this earlier and am just now finishing it.

This summer marks 1 year I have been back on the game. Crazy how time goes. I also am finishing the What a long strange trip it's been quest line. For those of you who don't know it takes a year and some crazy dedication to finish all the in game events. And here I am on Yunna doing the last little bits. I don't care if it is fucking cliche, this last year HAS been a strange trip! Cheers to the summer solstice. *edit* Got the achievement!~and the violet proto drake!

One more week till the salt river and then the 4th. Tomorrow I am starting a juice cleanse (aka starve myself until I lose 10 pounds). I'm doing this one. Pretty much these next 7 days are going to suck. *edit* 24 hours in and I would really love to eat something but it isn't too bad.

I can't believe Puscifer is next weekend! This summer rocks! \m/
Next week I will put up pictures of the show and salt river.

YOLO!

I don't generally buy in to hype about new products. I love the saying "I don't believe in horoscopes. As a Sagittarius I am skeptical". But anywhore I did run out and buy some of THIS. Coconut oil is the shit for a vegan diet. Also it is used for skin and hair care so BONUS! I figured 6 bucks is worth giving it a try if all the hype is true. So far I love it. I used it in my hair and it works just like a hot oil treatment...for a fraction of the cost. I also used it in my breakfast smoothie this AM. My favorite vegan Jenna Marbles actually blogged  about it. She has a better description and is far more amusing so just read it Mmmmkay?


Sorry if that was boring. Not much exciting has been going on, well other then my drunk ass friends calling me at 5 in the morning to go to Denny's. Things are about to get a whole lot more interesting lovies. Trust and believe. It's gonna happen. ;-) YOLO summer 2012!

Monday musings and my thoughts on relationships

So many things. So many things running through my head right now.

Okay first off recently I have been getting more hits to my blog from all over the world. This is cray cray! People in Switzerland and Germany are reading my shit! That is amazing and wonderful and wow! But my next question is...Do I monetize this? Making money off of doing something that I love is great except I'm not sure how I feel about putting advertisements on The Next Big Thing. I'm going to have to think about this one for a while. 


Oh yeah and hey my diet. I know I mentioned a while back that I wanted to transition to becoming a vegan. I haven't really brought it up again because well shit I am the girl who never finishes anything. I talk about things but it never goes much past that. Well as of right now I think it is fair to say that I have adopted at the very least a vegetarian lifestyle. I don't even miss meat and I have never felt better. I don't even consume half as much caffeine as I used to. I just naturally feel great! I also eat organic when possible and I stay away from the highly processed foods. My general rule is if I can't pronounce half of a foods ingredients then it probably doesn't belong in my body. Even G who needs 3 things to survive (beef, sex and video games) has been talking about replacement proteins. The happy? Oh it's in my heart.


I have so much going on this month and next. Summer is by far my favorite time of year. Next weekend is beer pong at a friends house and Father's Day BBQ and then the 30th is Puscifer!!! and the next day we are tubing down the salt river for my sisters b-day. Oh can't forget middle of July G's BFF Michael and his wife will be here so weekend trip to Sedona. So excited!


Okay rant I have been putting off. 


Why are girls so dumb? Why do guys stay in a relationship they are miserable in? Why do people lose their sense of self? Who wants to live like that? If you have to play games or try to control another person then maybe you should seriously reconsider how healthy that union is. You. deserve. better. I know several people who are going though the most ridicules relationship BS and as much as I would love to just point and laugh I can't. It makes me sad and it is hard to watch. Just stop. There are people who care about you and want to see you happy. Just stop the craziness, Mmmkay? /rant



"Some Nights" Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck Some nights, I call it a draw Some nights, I wish that my lips could build a castle Some nights, I wish they'd just fall off But I still wake up, I still see your ghost Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh What do I stand for? What do I stand for? Most nights, I don't know anymore... oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh This is it, boys, this is war - what are we waiting for? Why don't we break the rules already? I was never one to believe the hype - save that for the black and white I try twice as hard and I'm half as liked, but here they come again to jack my style And that's alright; I found a martyr in my bed tonight She stops my bones from wondering just who I am, who I am, who I am Oh, who am I? Oh, who am I? mmm... mmm... Well, Some nights, I wish that this all would end Cause I could use some friends for a change And some nights, I'm scared you'll forget me again Some nights, I always win, I always win... But I still wake up, I still see your ghost Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh What do I stand for? What do I stand for? Most nights, I don't know... (come on) So this is it? I sold my soul for this? Washed my hands of that for this? I miss my mom and dad for this? No. When I see stars, when I see, when I see stars, that's all they are When I hear songs, they sound like this one, so come on Oh, come on. Oh, come on, OH COME ON! Well, this is it guys, that is all - five minutes in and I'm bored again Ten years of this, I'm not sure if anybody understands This one is not for the folks at home; Sorry to leave, mom, I had to go Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun? My heart is breaking for my sister and the con that she call "love" But when I look into my nephew's eyes... Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from... Some terrible lies...ahhh... oh woah, oh woah, oh woah, oh oh oh woah, oh woah, oh woah, oh oh The other night, you wouldn't believe the dream I just had about you and me I called you up, but we'd both agree It's for the best you didn't listen It's for the best we get our distance... oh... It's for the best you didn't listen It's for the best we get our distance... oh...

Guess what I heard?! ;-)

Just kidding nothing. Or did I? Ha! I bet you would love to know!
Either way I got your attention!

I feel like I haven't worked in forever. Oh wait that's right I haven't. G wants me to take some time off but honestly I get bored. My liver needs me to get back to work! (I really don't drink that much. Only on my nights off!) It's nice that he wants to take care of me but yeah...just no. 


Shhh don't tell G but I am getting him SiriusXM satellite radio for his truck for fathers day. Just kidding you can tell him he knows. How fucking awesome am I?! I got him an awesome truck and now I am putting an even more amazing stereo system in it!

So I seriously need to focus on my workouts. The 4th of July is almost here! Oh and cheese and rice my sister just posted a pic of herself in her underwear and she looks fantastic! Damnit! July is by far my favorite month. So much going on. Must. Be. Perfect.


I need to figure out what kind of car I want now. Still driving my inlaws minivan around or the rape van as my friends like to call it. Oh God I need about 10k right now. I just can't drive that teal beast around any longer. I should be there by this fall. What a good wife I am. I took one for the team so he could get the truck he wanted. /sigh


You know what is really neat? Still being able to talk to people on Diablo when you are on WoW. Hey Bliz you did something right!

Random is how I roll

Moscato is possibly the most delicious thing I have ever put in my mouth...almost. ;-) I mean comeon! What about cheese. Right now I am eating nachos but truth be told chips are just the vehicle to get the cheese in my mouth.

Just a blog about how awesome these two girls are at 12 and 8.


Their voices are UNREAL! And just for the record if I have another child (which wont ever happen because being pregnant is GROSS!) boy or girl the name is going to be Lennon. perfect. I actually like them better then the original. I love this song Another good cover by a Swedish vocal group. I just drank an entire bottle of moscato and am still upright. I deserve a slow clap for that shit! Can I just say I love Taylor Swift?

Why is my office so hot!?

It's that moment you realize...hey, my life is pretty good. Wait what is this feeling? I'm happy. I'm. fucking. happy. I have everything I have ever wanted and what I don't have I am actively working toward getting. It's not even about things. I have the love and support of family and friends. You  can't always control the direction of your life but you can be happy just existing in this moment. I feel bad for the people who don't know that.

On that note.

And more lulz

So very tired

So much information. I leave for a few days and whoa! Anywho lets start with a review of the hot springs. First off don't even attempt to get there unless you have a 4 wheel drive truck. It is 40 miles on a dirt road down the side of a mountain. 3 hours of praying to God that I don't die but feeling pretty sure it would happen anyways. I don't suggest it if you are nervous or have anxiety naturally. It was horrible. I could rant about this forever but you get the point. After you drive for 6 years through hells anus (Bloody Basin Rd) you reach the Verdi River...and party central. The sand is the same stuff you would find at the beach and there is only about 4 camping spots even remotely close to the water but it is awesome. Sheeps bridge is fucking amazing too. The natural hot springs are tucked in a cave of river reeds down a crazy trail. Since it was so secluded the other campers who were there wanted to know how we knew about the place. It was like a secret society. Everyone was super friendly too. That was good since you literally had to walk through our camp to get to the trail for the springs. It was beautiful and fun but after a few days I was ready to go home and shower. Oh that is another thing. Bring everything you might need and plenty of water. There is no making a beer or chips run. Of all the times I have been camping this was by far the most "roughing it".



 LOL

So tired. Think Imma call it a night. Night lovers.

I thought you should know

I have like 15 minutes before I have to start getting ready for work. I also need to be packing for vacation. I would tell you where I am going but it is super secret. Just kidding I actually don't know. All I know is we are going camping on a river and it is 27 miles on a dirt road down the side of a mountain. Sounds like fun huh? I'm not really the outdoorsy type. My idea of a vacation involves a hotel and mud baths. But no I am excited. Anyways I found this gem on the internets and thought I would share.





You are welcome.

Oh by the way you were right Diablo is amazing. =)




  I wont tell anyone that you voice is my favorite sound

Look Ma, we're neato

This post may be a little disjointed so you will have to forgive me. I am still exhausted from last night. Crazy amazing time BTW. My friends are so awesome.


This is an interesting look at the eclipse and how it affects your horoscope.
How to deal with eclipses


Do you got low self esteem?  You can rent my ego.




I really like the last Postsecret. 

Someday everything will be okay
and we will be happy
with the person we turned out to be

I am so sad Rich broke up with his boyfriend. I fucking love Winston so hard!
Shit people say to the cats left behind after a breakup 

The randomness, you love it.

I need to unplug

Right now I am texting my sister, playing 6 games of DrawSomething on my Kindle, fishing on my mage and blogging. This is crazy. Plus I am far drunker than I had intended. Noooo I have many things to tell you. Oh wow I am so drunk. So very drunk. And laughing at the people I am talking to. It is funny how much faster I can text when drunk but it is far less accurate. I think my phone knows. It's like shes drunk lets fuck with her. That plus the amount of gossip I have heard in the last 48 hours is unreal. I can't wrap my head around it.

I guess I will just condense this into what is important.

Saturday I am having a thing at my house. (my phone told my sister I am having a thong) See what I am saying....it KNOWS! And yes it is turning into a rather large thing with food and hookah but the best part is beer pong. This is the start of the next good summer..

I so badly want to tell you what the good summer is but words are not enough. It is warm concrete on the back of your bare thighs and fireworks and laughing until it hurts and everyday adventures and True cab confessions with Randy Travis and and and this doesn't even begin to explain it. It is feeling alive. When is the last time you felt alive? Well lets do it together. Lets wake up from this sleepy daydream and live.

Cheers. To the best summer of our lives.

Last Monday posting? Hardly!

So tonight was it for the semester. Let's all breath a collective sigh of relief. Back to what I love. Music, video games and other things 14 year old boys are into...I mean hipsters like me love. ;-)


Right now I am listening to Carina Rounds new album Tigermending. She is the same girl who sings with Maynard and Puscifer. I was disappointing when G told me he wasn't a huge fan of Puscifer. He said they sound too much like Primus. Well it turns out that's because the drummer IS the guy from Primus...holy shit. I can't wait for June! Also who knew G had such an ear for music? 


Anyways listen to Carina Rounds "Pick up the phone"

Well it's nothing that can't be fixed
with a hot bath 
and a fitfth of mothers ruin
all forgone for the duration
with deranged and maybe eaten
drunken sex with strangers
and his wife didn't stop crying
for at least a week he told me
but at least she got the kids and half a million
I just assumed she was sleeping




Oh by the way Maynard is getting married to his lab manager Jennifer Lairamore.

Mandatory Monday posting

It's must be a bad day. I'm closing a Monday night with a Bud Light and not my usual glass of wine or obscure hand crafted beer. It really tastes like shit but I am desperate. The last few days have been terrible. I could go for a fifth of Patron right about now. But I can pound beers like a champ so I will be nice and drunk by the end of this.


I'm upset about my car. I heard from the mechanic today and it isn't my fuel pump/filter. I threw a rod. Basically the engine seized and it is gone. I wasn't expecting that. It's the equivalent of going to the doctors for a hang nail and being told you have terminal cancer and to say your goodbyes. Okay that was dramatic. It's just a fucking car. I should be excited to be getting a new one this weekend. I guess I get attached to objects. It's all symbolic to me.You would have to know me to understand that. Chin up kid, life is an adventure.


Hey let's talk about music. I mean that's why your here, right? ;-)


My playlist which is oddly titled "homework" has some of the most fantastic music. Remy Zero, Bright Eyes, Birdy, Damien Rice, Eliott Smith, Guster. Andrew showed all those bands to me. He knew more about music then anyone I have ever met. He was also a better writer than I will ever be. Nothing is worse than reaching for the phone to send that hey guess what text only to remember. He's gone.
Listen to Band of Horses "The Funeral".  Sometimes I wonder if he knew how much he inspired me.




Puscifer is June 30th. It's not Tool but the next best thing ehh?


Look in your eyes, I've never seen the ocean. Not like this one. -Oceans

Oh side note someone tried to hack my email so yeah...

Amazeballz

Today is Sunday but I am mostly sure I wont be able to finish this tonight as I have a lot to talk about. Then again who knows because I tend to grow bored easily and once I realize how much effort getting my thoughts down on paper (computer?) really is it suddenly becomes not very important to talk about. Holy run on sentence! Anyhow my point is...nothing. I never really have a point do I? And yet you read so here we are again. Continuing on.


Yesterday I got my tregus pierced. Ironically enough is my fear of needles. I will have to say I was piss my pants nervous and I am quite sure I broke Lex's hand. But it was amazing. It's that moment when you first feel the needle against your skin that is the worst. You know what is coming. Honestly most painful piercing and I have my nipples done. Well had. Hard to nurse a baby with D rings right! This is how it went. Piercer: Just relax. (needle goes in) Me: Fuck fuck fuck...sorry Piercer: Okay now time to get the jewelery in. Me: FML So yeah it hurt but Electric Needle in PV is great and they were super nice. I love it. So cute! I am already planning my next piercing. I want an industrial on my right side.


Okay so I am going to bed but I will finish this tomorrow.


So it is tomorrow. Aaaannnd I just found out the most wonderful amazing news. Puscifer is ending their tour in Prescott on June 30th. I am beyond stoked. I have always wanted to see Tool in concert but MJK hasn't been doing much as far as APC and Tool go. At least not that I know of. The fan girl in me is fucking flipping out. This is going to be a good summer.


Seee I knew it! I am so excited about seeing MJK I don't even want to write all the other stuff I had on my mind. It just isn't important anymore. 
Here is the short version.
I have been eating better. Cut WAY back on meat and eat tons of fresh fruits and veggies. I feel great.
I am addicted to You Tube. Someday I will make a list of my favorites.
The end.

Rant like woah!

Ahhhh sweet Monday nights. I'm holding my anthropology text book in my lap as if somehow the information will magically filter to my thoughts. It's not working but at least it is making a great holder for my glass of red wine. This is becoming a Monday tradition.


My mouse is doing some fucked up shit. It makes me feel drunker than I really am. Neat!


I registered for classes today for the fall...or should I say class. As in just math 092...for the third time. You know what? I'm not even ashamed to say that. Wanna know why? No? Too bad I'm gonna tell you anyways. Because I am funny and pretty and I placed into honors English and I am wittier than most people I know and I am honest and genuine and a dreamer and I DO. NOT. GIVE UP...EVER* So yes, I don't get math. It just doesn't calculate for me. (haha get it? Calculate?)  I don't even care. If math is the one thing that challenges me so be it. I'm just going to keep trying. No distractions. No bullshit. Nothing is getting in the way of my dreams this time. /rant


Wow re-reading over that last little bit has made me realize how much I have changed in the last two years. I'm so much stronger than I ever thought I could be. It can only go up from here. And it already has. For the last month I have been saving to buy a house. Saving money has always been hard for me. I am high maintenance and shit gets expensive! Anyways my point is I saved $1000! Even though I did get my nails done with my wifey today. Whatever I deserved it. Oh staying in Jerome with Michael and his wife in May too. So yeah sometimes I spend but all in all it has gotten so much better. 

This post is so much more serious than I had intended. I really feel great. I guess it is time to get some sleep although I have still been having that weird re-occurring dream. Come on subconscious figure shit out so I can get some sleep. LOL! 

Night angelface \m/           

Why is my office so fucking hot!?       


*That list could go on but I'm just going to end it there because you get the point. I am full of win and awesome.

I'm all out of witty titles so whatever you get the point.

I love quiet nights like this. I get home from class on Mondays and everyone goes to bed. Then I get the house to myself. Once you become a parent little things like quiet and sleeping in or eating something without a little person begging it right out of your hands becomes so much more pleasurable. Speaking of awesome things and forgive me if I have mentioned it before but 1000 Awesome Things is well...awesome!


I finally did the pink in my hair. It makes me ridiculously happy.
 It's subtle and already starting to fade but it is fun. I'm also proud of myself because I did it after drinking half a bottle of wine. Long before I ever had aspirations of becoming a nurse all I really wanted to do was hair and nails.

I wrote that two days ago and got sidetracked. So much for quiet. Today I have been keeping an eye on a puking feverish 5 year old. Yay laundry!...and homework /sarcasm

Other than that the semester is almost over. I have never been happier and more excited to see a semester finish. This summer is going to be amazing


I better just post this now or it will never happen. Back to a sick child. The joys of parenthood.


E ghaf oui fuimt nalukhewa ed nekrd yfyo.

It's coherent...enough!

Well hello there! 3 cheers for what will probably be the most incoherent blog post ever. Ahh cold meds and you thought I was bad when I had been drinking! Hey at least I'm not trying to make rice! ;-) Ooohhh I just went there!

Annnnyways. Guess what. I love dubstep. Annnnd band of horses. My taste in music is so completely random but that is nothing new.

New fav


No seriously you have no idea how much I love this song. Sexual.

I pretty much love Skrillex

That is some heavy shit if you think about it. Who is really the hunted?



I feel like I had more to write about but ummm yeah. I do. Nother day angelface. Promise.

Until then listen to Band of horses "The Funeral" and Remy Zero "Fair"

Night \m/

Oops!

I changed the background of my blog. Obviously. I mean you can obviously see that because you are right now reading these words so I most likely didn't need to inform you of the change. Unless you are color blind or not very observant. The not being observant part I actually don't know anyone who is color blind. I know a few people like that. Orange is awesome!


Random blog is random.


2 hours later. I'm sorry what was I saying?
Fucking YouTube It's like the black hole of the internet.


I have a bitch. When I ask you what you want for dinner don't tell me I don't know or I don't care. Even in you DON'T know or care tell me you will think about it and get back to me later. I am not asking you for my fucking health. I am asking because I hate to cook and if I have to fucking make dinner then you damn well better tell me what to make.
Text messages went as follows.
Me: What do you want for dinner?
G: idk whatever
Me: I will fucking kill your face (he knows I hate when he does that)
G: Fine salmon and rice!
Me: Was that so hard?







See her hair? I'm totally doing that. But with pink. idgaf I'm totes doing it.


Oh yeah so it's been a year. Isn't life an adventure. You hop on and ride that shit till the last second. If your not living that way then you aren't doing it right. Don't worry angel faces I have lots more to talk about. Might even start making videos. Mind outta the gutter not THOSE kind of videos! ;-) Just the regular kind with my friends where we do funny shit and make you laugh...hopefully.

I can't brain today, I have the dumb.

I feel like I'm moving in fucking slow motion today. I just can't get my shit together. Jesus.


Anyways I don't know why I make plans. I never do what I say I'm going to do. Oh yeah I'm "for sure" going to be on the lake this weekend. Riiiight. Except no. I am actually going to the Renaissance Festival tomorrow. I have too much shit to do like homework and meetings with realtors to spend two days getting drunk and sunning myself. FML Whatever, being responsible fucking sucks. It's all good I would rather go shopping anyways.


Last night my co-workers and I attempted the saltine cracker challenge. Simple really. 6 crackers in under a minute. Fucking impossible! I had 15 seconds left and one more saltine and Jessi tells me "Just put it in your mouth!" Do you even know how hard it is to say "That's what he said!" with a mouth full of cracker?! I should have recorded it on my cell phone. Maybe I will start vlogging. 


One last thing before I spend the next 4 days playing WoW. I want to explain some driving rules just in case you missed the memo. If your lane merges into mine... I have the right of way. If I am smoking and on my cell phone then please for the love of all things good in this world give me the right of way. You don't want to die do you?


I don't have pet peeves; I have whole kennels of irritation.


Okay I'm out. I need to get a mani/pedi because I'll be goddamned if I wear open toes shoes tomorrow with this shabby ass paint job on my toes. Time to make myself pretty. Later bitches!

Spring!

And yet it is cold...


So I have an opportunity to be a promo girl for the local indoor football team. Getting paid to dress cute and talk to people? Sounds good to me! Funny, G isn't so keen on the idea. Honestly with school I don't know that I will have time to anyways. 


I signed up for the pre-sale of Diablo III. It was suggested to me a while ago so what the hell right? I will give it a shot. Don't worry I will still be on WoW. Can't abandon your first love. I have new characters to lvl and I can't forget Yunna's archaeology! That shit is addictive huh! 
Oh I almost forgot! You need to get a Singing Sunflower! The quest is called lawn of the dead and it is basically the mini game plants vs zombies.  It's actually kind of hard!


I can't wait for the weather to warm up. I am FOR SURE going to the lake this weekend. WooT!

Big announcement

You know, I really am starting to think that sleep is just entirely overrated. OMG the nightmare I just woke up from. I was driving and kept running red lights. Come to think of it that's about accurate. I am not exactly known for my driving skills. It was a lot more involved than that. Something to do with a car accident and being first on the scene. Everyone was dead and no one was around. My brain...I swear.


 Oh yeah anyways on to our big announcement. We are buying a house! We should be meeting with some people next week to get the ball rolling. No we haven't picked a house out yet but we do want to keep it in this general neighborhood. I keep looking at the houses on the hill and I am pretty sure that is what I want. Excited to finally buy another house not excited to move. The good thing is these things take time. I am really getting tired of throwing 900$ a month to pay someones mortgage.


Anywho I have some new-ish favorites for you.
Go to YouTube and look up Jenna Marbles. Go ahead I will wait. Found her? Good. Now watch all of her videos and become addicted. I can not believe there is someone in this world so much like me. I thought I was the only one... 10 imaginary points if you can tell me what awesome 80's movie that is from!
Links for the lazy


http://www.youtube.com/user/JennaMarblesVlog/featured







AWOLNATION-Sail done by the girl from RWJ.


Meekakitty








Annnd I'm out. Mall shopping because consumerism owns my soul.

The most exciting post EVAH!

Just kidding. Today is about as vanilla as they come.

This weekend was possibly the most chill relaxing weekend I have ever had. Obviously we didn't make it to the lake and I was actually totally fine with that. Saturday we went to the swapmeet and got G a samurai sword set. I got cheep sunglasses and hair flowers. Hair flowers are kinda my trademark. Other than that we got takeout and I played WoW for two days.  Other then working on Yunna's archaeology I made a new character on a different server. Yeah it really was that boring.




G is going to be putting his bike up on Craigslist and we are getting a camper. That's about the most exciting thing going on right now.


The usual goodness.
http://www.postsecret.com/

Today is totally random but it is a good day. ;-)

“We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.” ― Anaïs Nin

Horoscopes are bullshit

And this is why.


From yahoo horoscopes


Your daily life is currently being polluted a bit by someone whose maturity level leaves a lot to be desired. Luckily, you will find the right words today to help this person grow up a bit -- and fast. Your hilarious wit will come to the rescue once again, turning a potentially frustrating episode into a funny joke that everyone enjoys. Your sense of humor offers a great way to alleviate the tension of confrontation, so why not use it? 

Really? Because in all actuality I got up took a shower took the kids to school then had Starbucks and watched YouTube videos. Conclusion, horoscopes are not real. That being said I will still read mine every fucking day. 


AAAAaaaaannnndddd time to go to work.

OH RLY? YEAH RLY! SRSLY!

 El oh el I crack myself up.

The semester is half way finished! ANNNDDD I am caught up on my homework. Fantastic!
I do need to start working on my ethics paper but well yeah I just don't want to. It's funny how when I started school two years ago I was so terrified. Yes, terrified. Even just going to campus was an overwhelming ordeal. This is a huge part of the reason I waited until I was 29 to even think about starting. I have been blessed with some amazing people in my life who have literally held my hand through the hardest parts. They supported and encouraged me when I felt like I couldn't do it. Things are so different now. I'm so much stronger then I used to be. I have a lot of feelings about school. Most of them are along the lines of stress, aggravation and  OMG this is sucking up all my free time. But I also feel things like determination and hope. Most importantly is what I don't feel and that is fear. Heartfelt thanks to all involved in getting me to where I am today.


On that note I am gonna play some game and NOT think about school. ;-)

Monday mornings can suck it.

Oh Monday morning you are a bitch. I'm staring at a pile of homework and my phone suddenly quit working and I need to do laundry. Other than the fact I feel like I am moving in slow motion (dear amp energy I am not feeling so ampy right now) these are things I can handle but really I just want to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head. It was a long (but good) weekend. And now Jack Johnson is on Pandora and I REALLY am losing motivation. I will be on the lake this weekend so it's okay. 


Here this makes it all better.
Cute animals and even cuter captions. What are those little flat faced cats because I need one...in my lap...right now! 
Cuteoverload

I'm annoyed with my phone. Sorry if you are trying to get a hold of me. ;-) I will have it back up soon. I guess I should go to the Sprint store now.



Oh and I have a new goal. I want a boat. Now I just need to figure out how to tow one. Renting boats are expensive and I need one for this weekend.

It only sounds like ramblings if you don't know what I am talking about.

I really can come up with some interesting ways to avoid homework. It's like a fucking talent. I know this means I will hate my life around midnight but whatever. I do what I want...obviously.


Really been trying hard to get back into Mörrigan but I am just so far behind. Now Yunna on the other hand is awesome. Only 3 more holiday events and I will have completed What a long strange trip it's been. Three words Violet. Proto. Drake. oh and master flight but I already have that. Uh excuse me miss...your nerd is showing.


I have had my copy of FFXIII sitting collecting dust since...Oh I started school. (fml) But now there is a FFXIII-2?! Seems like Square-Enix does that when they aren't happy with the story line. Hello FFX and FFX-2. BTW X-2 sucked.







LOL penis colada


Supposed to snow tonight. Really?! I was in Phoenix this weekend and it was 80! I literally wore a skirt and tank top. And WTF is a Pacific Nor'westerner?! You sent this didn't you Michael. You keep your shitty ass Oregon weather to yourself! ;-P


I guess I will do some homework. Or I could log on and do some PvP... Yeah I think the answer to that is easy.

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood....

I really could get used to this weather!


So apparently trampolines are the secret to happiness. I agree! 


As always Postsecret is awesome. The last secret...awwww


Today is wonderful. =)


“Love does not care to define and is never in a hurry to do so.” -Charles Du Bos

Today is...

Today is the new moon. Astrologically speaking it is a time of new beginnings. You are supposed to make a wish on the new moon.


Today feels like a new beginning. 


For a while there I almost gave up. But today I have a new hope. I feel more driven and ambitious than ever. I feel like I could conquer the world. I'm so excited for school. I'm going to be a nurse. I am going to realize my dream. When so many people just give up on themselves on their dreams I wont be one of them. I have been through shit you could not even imagine. This world will not break me. So thank you and happy...new moon. Make a wish. ;-)

Slightly (ok a lot) intoxicated

Well that was a shittastic night at work. I started to write out the synopsis but I don't really want to talk about it. Let's just say I'm pissed off. I drove home blaring Tool and chain smoking. It helped a little. Actually I love my job. 99.9% of my co-workers are the kindest most understanding wonderful people I have ever met. In the 5 years I have been there I have made quite a few life-long friends. But there is always the .1%...


Like I said I really don't want to talk about work.


Let's talk wine. Right now I am on my second glass of Maynards "Dayden". It is a pink table wine and it is phenomenal. Sweet but not too sweet with a little zip at the end. I had it my first trip to Jerome in the jacuzzi tub with the hubs. We (and by we I mean HE) put too much bubble bath in and we couldn't even see each other. Every time I drink this wine I think about laughing so hard trying to empty the bubbles into the shower. I fucking love that man.


Normally when I am pissy I listen to shit like Tool or Disturbed or even (admitting this begrudgingly) Primus. But Taylor Swift??? Oh her new song is so wonderfully soulful. This is the music I love.







I secretly (or not so secretly) love folk. Just listen to Mumford and Son's to understand what I am talking about. 


Yeah I am done. Too much wine and I am sleepy. Holy shit it's 12:30!


Night Lovies

My mind is still on vacation

So I kinda have a lot of stuff to do and not a lot of time to do them in. STORY OF MY LIFE! Homework clean Valentines day shopping. I like to do things last minute. I work better under pressure.
 Speaking of Valentines day I found a great article about what NOT to get. Did you get a bouquet of flowers last year? That says I put absolutely ZERO thought into your gift. I only got it because I had to get you something. Insightful don't you think?


10 Worst V-day Gifts 




We spent the weekend in Jerome for Valentines day. . .and got matching tattoos! Glenn got his on his right forearm and I got mine on my left so when we stand together holding hands they line up.

 It's a Celtic lovers knot or as I like to put it it's Celtic for "he's mine bitch". 

We stayed at the Jerome Grand Hotel and the view from our room was breathtaking. From the balcony you could literally see to Sedona. For being such an old hotel I was pleasantly surprised by how nice the rooms were. The bed was comfortable and the shower had great water pressure. As per what is becoming tradition I didn't sleep well. I don't sleep well in unfamiliar surroundings anyways but couple in with that a night of drinking, a throbbing tattoo and an overactive imagination... I always think I hear/see things but nothing that would convince me proof positive that the place is haunted. I did get a cool picture.

No filter was used and I didn't change the settings. Just a simple cell phone shot off the balcony at about 3 in the afternoon.

For dinner we ate at the Asylum. I have wrote about the service there before but I thought we would risk it. They tend to be slow and snobby but this time was PERFECT. Different waitress this time and she was so fun and friendly. As always we started with the award winning, much talked about soup. Oh I also had the rack of lamb which is my favorite food second to sushi. Weekends in Jerome always go so fast. I did get about 200$ worth of wine this time though. I should be good until next time!

I just looked at the business card from Jerome tattoo company. Johnny Knuckles was they name of the guy who gave us our tats. It really was an awesome place. The guys there are so funny and relaxed. I learned what three down low means from them! As in five up top three down low as they hump each other. Ha! Fantastic!

Jerome Tattoo Company 

Back to homework. /sigh

Sleep deprivation

Two more days until Jerome. That statement has me so excited I think I peed a little. And then a friend passed this on to me. Don't be lazy. Click the goddamn link already. Possibly the most AMAZING thing I have ever read. Maynard...from Tool...and A Perfect Circle. My all time favorite artist ever. His thoughts on living in Jerome.
"It's definitely filled with a bunch of crazy people that are pretty much on par with how crazy I am," Keenan says with a laugh. "So, that felt natural. It's a nice place for some honest conversation."

That article reminded me so much of being raised on a farm. I really feel like if I were to sit down and have a conversation with Maynard he would be my BFF. 

I want to just move to Jerome already but for now weekend trips will have to do. I am for sure bringing home as much wine as I can carry from Caduceus. I'm not kidding. I have a hefty fund set aside just for wine. 

I need to go and try to fall asleep. Insomnia is a bitch.

Has the mail come yet????

So I don't know what to get G for Valentines day. Last year I got him a new sound system for his computer and a motorcycle. How do I top that!?!? I was thinking of getting him a high powered telescope and tickets to Lowell Observatory. Or maybe I could get him a homebrew kit so he can make his own hand crafted beers. I'm at a loss here people. It just isn't fair. Shopping for me is so easy. If it smells good, glitters or is designed by someone with a last name you can't pronounce I will most likely love it. Or you could just throw a couple hundred dollars at me and send me to the mall. 

Speaking of money (seamless segue!) Starting today I stalk the mailbox. Comeon student loans! I want my iPhone already! and to get my hair done and my tanning membership and a facial and new clothes for my photoshoot next month and new panties from Victoria's Secret and and and.... yeah I want a lot of things. 

Two weeks till Jerome! It is by far my favorite place ever! Even better we are staying at the Jerome Grand Hotel (aka haunted hotel). Even better we reserved the room with the balcony overlooking the Verde Valley. The one that supposedly one of the orderlies fell to her death from...yeah that one. So excited for a weekend of amazing wine and shopping and food. 

Yup.

These girls are amazing.

I think I know someone like that.


Annnnd another.

I'm totally skipping homework to play video games and take an hour long bath. My life. You want it.

I have a lot of friends who play WoW so I thought it would be worth mentioning www.curse.com. It allows you to download addons and I absolutely could not quest with out Carbonite. Go there download it. It's free. You can thank me later. ;-)


Well school starts next week. /sigh There goes my game time. 

Happy Friday the 13th!

Can someone get me a REGULAR diet coke!

First off take a look at my girl. Isn't she wonderful? I know right! I might be able to finish her before school starts back up.
Also this had me laughing so hard I thought I might pee.





Nothing like a Mormon high on pain meds to brighten your Monday morning.

A friend of mine who moved to California is sending me this. Sometimes I think I want to move back.

Yesterday I spent 10 minutes jumping on the trampoline with the girls and I thought I was gonna collapse a lung. Time to quite smoking!
*I got the message* ;-)

Today really is wonderful.

Ahh so much to say. It's right there wanting to spill out but not today boys and girls. Today I give you some music and idle chatter about video games. Isn't that the way it has always been? ;-)


Keep your eye on this girl. She's gonna get big.

God knows what is hiding, in this world of little consequence
Behind the tears, inside the lies
A thousand slowly dying sunsets
God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
I guess the loneliness came knocking

A few days ago I made a Shadow Priest named Pradâ. I love that name! Although I still like my mage better. I spent the better part of yesterday doing random dungeons. I need to start Dragon Age too. Maybe next summer lol.