A goodbye of sorts

I'm not saying I will never write here again, I'm just saying that for now I need a break from living my life under a microscope. I have always lived honestly and openly and I still do. I have so much joy in my life right now.  I just want to focus on living my life and not writing about it. Someday I will be back with more adventures but until then... :-D

Recap-ish?

I just finished watching the first season of Game of Thrones. I loved it so much I immediately turned around and pre-ordered the second season. It should be at my door February 21st! I wont post any spoilers but just trust me, it is good! Also can I say the guy who plays Khal Drogo is super hot.

So first post of 2013. 2012 was a crazy game changing year and this year is starting out pretty much the same. Let's just say shit got real on a lot of fronts. I learned so much last year. It really was one of the best years. I traveled places, made new friends and reconnected with old ones.  I made "grown up" decisions and backed out at the last minute. I had the kind of summer that makes you miss the warm nights. I saw my favorite musician in concert and went tubing down the salt river with my friends. I hope this year is as wonderful and strange as last.

These are words

It's been a long time since I sat down and wrote. I mean really wrote what was in my heart. All the thoughts that are inside of me bubbling out freely. I don't know if I will ever be able to do that again. I offer up a song, some lyrics maybe something funny or cute but the things that are real stay quiet. I suppose in some respects I have considered quitting my blog but my inner narcissist loves the attention too much to do that.

That's enough honesty for one night 

You should watch this YouTube channel.

And try chocolate wine. You would think after my amazing Christmas eve hangover I would know better but NAH!

I feel so light and at peace. It's been a long time since I have felt this way.



  This is my winter song to you. The storm is coming soon, it rolls in from the sea
My voice; a beacon in the night. My words will be your light, to carry you to me.
 Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love
They say that things just cannot grow beneath the winter snow, or so I have been told. They say were buried far, just like a distant star I simply cannot hold.
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
This is my winter song. December never felt so wrong, cause you're not where you belong; inside my arms.
  I still believe in summer days. The seasons always change and life will find a way. 
Ill be your harvester of light and send it out tonight so we can start again.
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
 This is my winter song. December never felt so wrong, cause you're not where you belong; inside my arms. 
This is my winter song to you. The storm is coming soon it rolls in from the sea. My love a beacon in the night. My words will be your light to carry you to me.
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
 Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love alive?
Is love alive? Is love alive?

Happy 100th

I would have hoped that my 100th post would be special and fun but I am heavy hearted tonight. I did something I haven't done in a long time. Friday morning I sat down on the couch, watched the news and cried. I haven't stopped thinking about it since then. They were just babies. I have a 7 year old. I can't even comprehend it.

I have so much on my mind right now. I need to not blog tonight. LOL

So happy 100th I promise in a few days I will put a real post up.

Daily dose of rock

I can't believe it is almost my birthday. This year has flown by. I'm actually pretty meh about it. I didn't plan anything this year but yesterday I kinda sorta had a thing at my house. Don't take offense if you weren't invited. It just happened. I have almost no voice today from all the screaming. I can turn beer pong into a sporting event. I was on FIRE last night.

Check out Volbeat "still counting"


Well maybe you think your lie is safe
But I read you like a letter, yeah like a letter
Your charms do not even the pain
it feeds me with rage, and you do it again


Also listen to Seether "Country Song"
I'm really embarrassed to admit to liking Seether but I can't help it.





 Okay last one. Halestorm "I miss the misery"

The little things

This is what NOT studying looks like. Tomorrow is the final. Am I self sabotaging? I may have just had an epiphany. It's floating somewhere in this glass of wine. I should be okay. I'm just done thinking for the night. 

Today while we were taking a tour of the East campus hospital I was all like "just take me to the babies!!!" in my head. I don't think that means I want to have another one. I just think I want to squish someones elses baby and then give it back. Working in the birthing center? Oh be still my heart. I know I will end up where I belong...where ever that is.

Daily funny

Tonight G was trying to tell me about a song.
"It's two guys. I think they might be British. I heard the song twice today and it made me think of you." So I showed him how to take whatever lyrics you do know with the word "lyrics" and Google will find the song. Me: so what is the song? G: Ummm I can't tell you. Me: Why not?! G: It's One Direction "the little things" Me: Yeah we probably can't be married anymore.

I spend more time thinking of a title then writing the actual blog

The internet is making me stabby tonight. I'm pretty sure my son is downloading something. 

 As most of you are aware I now work for YRMC. I have my reasons but it absolutely was not because I don't love Good Sam. Everyone I met there has had a profound impact on my life and I will never forget them and am very much in contact with them all. So sappy stuff aside...

Now this is porn! And I have watched my fair share of porn... 

I wish I could blog like her. I feel like my posts run out of steam before I even start writing them. Anyways I like her. She is funny and honest and yeah...you should check it out.

I feel like when I am at my busiest I sound the most boring. I should be sleeping right now. I would take a sleeping pill but I have 8 hours of orientation tomorrow. It's hard enough to stay awake through it let alone stay awake with a Tylenol PM hangover. 

Oh! I got my ears to a 10 gauge! Went right from an 18 up to a 10. I made D do it for me. She's such a good wifey. She was really concerned if it was hurting me. ftr it did hurt but I kinda like a little pain. It wont take long to get to a 4.

One last thing. Why don't you do something nice for someone. Seriously. Wipe that sour look off your face, stop complaining about how hard your life is and do something nice.

Once finals and new job orientation are over I will write more. Promise. Until then you get the condensed version of my life.