As promised...

Dick sucking jokes, profanity and an overactive gag reflex. If you are okay with that then go ahead and watch. Maybe I will start vlogging. ps God I have pretty hair!

 G asked me today what I wanted for my birthday. It's between an iPhone 5 or a coach bag. Or maybe I want the Galaxy s3. I want a lot of things. Probably an iPhone 5.

Went T-day shopping today. I'm making shit like creme fraiche and roasted garlic mashed potatoes. I'm fucking classy like that. Going all out this year. Except for yams because yams are gross. Anyone who tells you yams are good is lying just to be nice.

 Funny from today. We were in line at Safeway and the checkout boy cards me. (buying several bottles of wine and vodka for thanksgiving) I motioned to G like "what about him"?

Checkout boy: No I don't need his ID
Me: But you want mine?
Checkout boy: Yes...
G: (laughing) He respects the beard
Me: Whatever you just whine like a little girl! (he gets whiny when shopping takes too long)
G: That's not what you were screaming about 3 hours ago! zing!
 Ugh FAIL!

I got dark, only to shine

Have you ever done a thing on a whim and thought nothing would come of it but then something does come of it and you feel like you are standing outside your body watching it all go down? That's where I'm at right now. This is for reals happening. Cryptic? You bet your sweet ass!

Tonight is simple just a little new music to get you through the week.

Marina and the diamonds

I almost don't even want to mention her because I want to keep her MY secret. This is my new idol.

Just listen to "Homewrecker"




Or Numb



Can't forget about Lana Del Rey "National Anthem"

Up too late as usual

Well hello there, it's been a while. Has it? IDK it feels like it. I have things to tell you!

Let's start with the mundane. Sriracha. In case you didn't know and have been living under a rock somewhere Sriracha is a hot sauce but not just any hot sauce. Sriracha is a delicious blessing flavored with the incandescent glow of a thousand dying suns. Yeah it's that good. And it is also called cock sauce which makes me LOL forever. I made stir fry tonight and drowned mine in the stuff. Unbelievably lips burning good.

Someone somewhere mentioned a game and I kinda stopped what I was doing. Secret of Mana is on my list (of games I still need to play). I think I'm gonna pick this one up this week. Thanks for the reminder.

Holy shit going back home this weekend! Booked a room at Mountain Haven Inn. Kinda like a B&B minus the breakfast. It's been 11 years. Super excited for Michael and Jason's new brewery. 

G has an interview before we leave on Friday.  If he get's the position (same company different department) it will be huge. It will change everything. Being on the engineering team at Rugar would be amazing for him. He is convinced he wont get it but I am hopeful. He is the smartest man I know and if anyone can do it he can. I kind of did something a little crazy too. It's no secret but I may have applied for a different job. A chance to make more money is just so tempting. Good Sam has been good to me but who knows. Sometimes you just need a change. 

Okay I'm off too bed. I feel bad for people who have small children that wake them up. At least I get 8 hours uninterrupted.

Just a collection of little things

It's funny how time changes things. Even just our own perspective on things. Sometimes I think about how different life would be (usually after a few glasses of wine) with just a few different choices. It always works out the way it's supposed to. I'm grateful for the peace I have made with the past. My mothers birthday was October 2nd. I wonder if she is still alive.

As you can see I never made it to the lake. Still a busy weekend none the less. Went to Flagstaff and Rugar days. Saw a grasshopper the size of my hand. Went shopping for bras and makeup. G bought me a pretty turquoise ring. I'm going to spend tomorrow catching up on homework and leveling my hunter. Comeon 90!

Links because it is late and I am tired.

The Unnecesarian
Site dedicated to birth education and cesarean section rates. Birth is big business! I was 21 when I had my first baby and the Dr actually told me "It would just be easier that way" So glad I followed my instincts but I can't help but feel sorry for the women who don't know any better.

Postsecret
Still my favorite place on the web. We really aren't all that different.

BoingBoing
Makes me miss Andrew. He taught me a lot in a short amount of time.




 


A Softer World: 818

Happy October!

Headed to the lake next weekend! And because I am so happy I thought I would pass along the things I thought would make you smile.

But first.

This made me laugh WAY harder than I should have. GEE - SUZ - CRIIEEEST

This is interesting. Sorta in a creepy way.

Happy October. You know what the one redeeming quality of fall is? Beer...and beer fest. That's it. Because other than that it just means it's about to get cold.

Sure, why not.

Missed yesterday because I worked. So post is up late. ;-)

As much as I have been fighting against it I have fallen into a routine. Not the boring sort just the predictable sort. I'm in a really happy place.

Putting a pie in the fair tomorrow. Dutch apple. What the fuck is wrong with me. smh. Oh I know it was being raised on a farm. You know funny thing. Most things are pretty open for discussion when it comes to my life. I'm the queen of the overshare lol. I don't talk about one thing, at least not here. Those conversations are saved for sitting in the dark talking quietly over a cigarette. Even then it's only a special few.  Anyhow my point is I thought about it today. Tori Amos "Cornflake girl". I saw a video of Maynard and Tori singing together. Let me look that up for you because that's important.


*love*

All time favorite Tori song? A sorta fairytale.

Somehow these post just do not accurately depict how I'm feeling. Okay back to the Moscato and not sleeping because that is what I do best. What's the cheesy line from Titanic. Something about a woman's heart being a deep ocean of secrets. Yeah that.

I'll sleep when I'm dead

Why do I do this too myself?! Good question.

The YouTubes reminded me of one of my favorite shows. So You Think You Can Dance. Dance just wasn't in the stars for me but I still love it. Maybe someday I will get back to it. Until then I watch this.

Yeah destroys me every. time.

Listen to
Sleeping at last "turning page"

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered, to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With the whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes
Like a feather, bringing kingdoms to their knees

Well, happy Monday friend. Oh wait it's tuesday... FML